This is me at my biggest in 2006
That’s Me!
In 2006 I weighed my heaviest. I’m only 5’3″ and weighed over 300lbs. I wasn’t even 30 years old yet!!! I couldn’t believe I had let myself get so out of shape, and generally unhealthy.
I have always been a big person. From about the time I was 5 years old, I began putting on the pounds and haven’t really slowed down. I have always been self conscious of my weight and size, however I never really did much about it. I continuously made excuses as to why I could not address my weight or why I should put it off. “I’ll do it tomorrow” I would say… however “Tomorrow” never came until 2007.
In January 2007, I started Weight Watchers. It was one of the best things I have ever done. In a year and a half, I dropped a little over 68lbs. I had never felt better and could see a huge difference. I was determined I was going to leave the weight off and keep it down… but then life happened. My mom was diagnosed with brain cancer in February 2007. While I used that as initial motivation to work on my weight, the state of her health stayed on my mind. Work started putting more and more pressure on me so working longer hours was required. I moved due to my apartment being renovated which took me out of my comfort zone. My personal life wasn’t going in the direction I was hoping, so thing in general began spiraling down. During the summer of 2008, I started to slide back into old habits and bad decisions. I slowly started gaining weight back. By Fall of 2009, I had gained just about all the weight I worked so hard to lose back on.
And then it happened… Mom finally lost her battle with cancer the week before Thanksgiving. While I had started a crash diet before that happened and lost 40lbs, it wasn’t right and I knew that. After mom passed on, I continued to not eat… I just couldn’t do it, and had no interest. I lost a few more lbs, but knew it wouldn’t be permanent. After the new year for 2010, my appetite started coming back, but I was making very bad decisions again. Luckily I didn’t gain too much weight back, however I knew I had to do something.
And now, here we are. I’ve just passed my 32nd birthday and I want to get back on track. I’ve found a personal trainer to work with me 3 times a week for a very reasonable price. He’s going to help me with food and exercise. I’m pretty excited to get the plan moving, although I still have my reluctance to dig in and really watch what I eat. However, I know I’ve done it before, and know I can do it again. Just have to hunker down!
